I met her today....she's still as chio as before...haiz...reminded me of my sad history....why... why...why has it to be like this...if only...if only i could turn back the clock i would hav definetly done the correct thing....regretting deeply...haiz the thing tat i hav regretted the most in my life...........
well... some of you may hav known her...(sry for those who's at the moment wondering wat the hell i'm toking)....cos my mind is full of thoughts so tats y this entry's wordings may sound a bit weird...but nevertheless i'm trying very hard nw to type out exactly wat i'm feeling and thinking....
well...initially i told my frens tat i hav already forgotten abt her...and ya oso no longer hav feelings abt her...but when i saw her today, it turns out tat i do still hav deep feelings for her....haiz...think it cant be blame...the first impression is the most lasting impression....think she's oso the one tat leaves the deepest happy memory in my life so far.....
it has been a few years since i last met her other than today....and till nw...years later i still had this sad feeling...tat i shd hav in the past treasured the opportunity...haiz and this sad feeling once again intensify in me today...
so...i met her today at the sports stadium...i was running my 5km as usual once every 2 days...but today went to the stadium earlier by an hour cos later still nid to go gym...then there i was at the stadium doing my warm up...then saw this gal wearing an AJ pe t-shirt..its damn obvious cos the colors are damn striking...(cos mi frm AJ previously tats y 1 look can notice it)....so i was wondering who's this chio junior of mine is...hmm...but still cant see her face cos she running and mi is still rather far away doing my warm up... then when i got onto the tracks and started running...i saw her but cant be sure its her cos u noe ah...running very shack leh...already so tired le hw to notice in detail?.....after i run finish le i sat down on the stairs at the stadium to cool down....then i notice tat she oso finish running...and she was walking across my view in front of me...haiz but alas she never notice mi...perhaps i was "invisible" ba....
so this kept mi thinking and sadden for hours....think is the past embarrasing issues tat happen tats y nw still embarass to say anything...haiz if only i had done the right thing many years back, my life will be so happy nw....everydae wif the coral.....haiz so...this sad feeling continues...then went to gym...and damn it... the stupid gym play the sad music background song...geez onli made mi feel even more sad... too sad to exercise so long and so left the gym after 10-15 mins...haiz wasted my $2.50 gym ticket...then went to eat my fav bandito meal at kfc...and guess wat...the stupid kfc plays sad music songs again!!...haiz y cant singapore be more cheerful abit....at least play some happy and cheerful songs to cheer up sad souls lik me mah?? haiz...it so hard to forget abt her.... sometime still wish i still had the chance...haiz but wake up la reeve... wats gone is gone....never come back le... *deeply regrets and sad.....
btw guess u all shd be very clever...can figure out wat i'm toking rite? so dun think i nid to describe so detail anymore ya...hope she doing fine....
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