haiz.... morale very low.... has been the lowest since sch started.... have been thinking whether wat i'm doing is right anot... everytime mi does this thing, mi will feel happy initially but sad eventually.... so wat makes a decision a happy decision? a decision tat will benefit the majority but will bring a downfall to urself or is it a decision tat benefits urself but leaves the majority alone?so if u will me, would you choose a path tat will benefit urself and neglects others or a path tat is self-sacrifising but brings joy to the majority? haiz so till this moment and all along... me has been taking this self-sacrifising path.... should there be a halt to this? should i change my path at this point of time?
so i tried to drown myself to forget all these but me not enough money to buy so many beer to drown myself so no choice can onli do it with root beer.... but drink so many root beer le still dun get drunk... hw?.... nvm got the whole weekend to drink finish all my root beer...
btw... my msn nick will hav different modes, mode1,2,3.... mode1 is quiet and low profile in progress... mode2 is the standard mode u see mi in sch.... mode3 is the havoc and vulgar mode.... in addition theres modeS which means sad mode.... find it a bit weird tat mi is having all these crap thingi rite? well mi is a complicated person from the start.... haiz juz let mi die... y still nid to giv mi 4 more years to live? y cant straight away take all my remaining 4 years of lifespan away?....
haiz
haiz.....
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