F$#@

Well, I'm not too sure how many people will see this post... But think I will just blast everything here.

Today has been the lowest morale in my life... today is my formal observation, and I really prepared it to my best... i have factored in every thing that is possible but still... Teaching is really not easy... it really takes two hands to clap.. so what's the worst case scenario? well think i might have to sacrifice $60,000 for my happiness. Damn, the students... damn it all... how i wish i'm their bloody parents and gonna whack them hard and smash their head down hard until their skull break...